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The Struggle

The Struggle

Since moving to Georgia, I have been struggling with my weight. My struggles are not because of Georgia, necessarily, but are caused by a number of factors. I’ll list these in no particular order.

I’m getting older. In fact, I turn 41 next week. No big deal, since this is not really a factor in weight loss. It is, however, a factor in weight gain. Apparently, one’s metabolism “slows down” with age. This explanation really makes no sense to me. Wouldn’t a slower metabolism mean that your body doesn’t absorb — or metabolize — as much food. Therefore, you should get thinner, not fatter. I’ve often heard that overweight people claim that part of the reason of their fat is a slow metabolism. I think it’s the other way around: skinny people have inefficient metabolisms while mine seems to work just fine. Anyway, I can see age as a factor in weight gain for people who slow down. I, however, have sped up.

I exercise more now than I ever have in my life. When I run these days, I never go less than five miles. When I cycle, I never travel less than 10 miles. I have been doing both with more frequency. Yet, I gain weight. Apparently, exercise alone is not enough.

I live a pretty content life. This can easily translate to lazy. I don’t mean lazy in that I sit around all the time with chips and a Coke. I mean lazy in that I too easily eat what I’m not supposed to. This is the key: I must change what I eat.

“The fat you eat is the fat you wear,” writes John McDougall. He is correct. I’m pretty fed up with this nation’s ignorance about health. Every single fad out there seems to miss the point: it’s not carbs that make you fat. It’s fat! Why is this not obvious? Right, we’re Americans; we tend to ignore that which we don’t want to hear. We are a nation that loves our fat. I’m no exception. Yet, excess fat is bad for you in every way, the most obvious of which is excess adipose tissue. You know: fat.

Therefore, I’m back to McDougall. Yes, I’ve said that before, but I’m very serious now. I’m even starting with his maximum weight loss plan until I get to my desired weight. Then it will be the regular McDougall plan for the rest of my life. I enjoy being thin and feeling good to eating chicken wings. The only way to maintain is by eating right and exercising. I can do that. I actually enjoy it.

McDougall suggests writing down your specific goals and posting them somewhere you can see them. I’ll post them here and on my ‘fridge.

  • I want a 32″ waist line.
  • I want to be able to wear — and feel good doing it — every piece of clothing in my “skinny clothes” box.
  • I want my regular run to be at least ten miles.
  • I want my regular cycling route to be at least twenty miles.

I plan on reaching these goals by the new year: 2011. I know this is ambitious and radical, but I need that. I will get back to my pre-Georgia weight and keep it off the rest of my life.

UPDATE: I plan on keeping track of my progress on my Tumblr account. I’ll probably do weekly updates here. So, if you’re interested, check it out. There will probably be pictures and recipes, too.

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Summer Updates

Summer Updates

Since it’s too hot to go outside for very long, what better place to be than behind the keyboard? OK, I can think of other places that I’d rather be, but my web sites have needed some updates for a while. I’ve made significant progress on just this site alone, but mostly I’ve just been updating the framework of each site, adding little tweaks here and there.

One of the coolest things I did, that most folks will never see or appreciate, is add iPhone icons to each site. I’ve done this before, but it was only after purchasing Reeder for the iPad that I knew I needed to do it again. Reeder is a slick RSS reader for the iOS, but unlike others I’ve used, it’s superior both in looks and functionality. It doesn’t have some features that I’d like — for example, the ability to tweet an entry or save it to Delicious — but Not only does it look great, but it has the ability to post to Delicious, Twitter, Instapaper, and other social networking sites; it’s a great app and one that I use everyday.

My favorite part of Reeder has to be the icon presentation. Each group of feeds looks like a stack of cards; each feed a single card, marked either with its favicon or its iPhone icon. Most web sites by now have the former, but fewer have the latter, though it’s a simple addition to the site as Dave Taylor explains on the last link. Not only does this add a cool icon to the home screen of your iOS device, but Reeder uses them in its feed display. Here are mine:

Pretty slick, no? I’d just like to add one thing to Dave Taylor’s otherwise good tutorial. I made my icons 150×150 pixels, rather than the 45×45 he suggests. Trust me, the larger sizes look much better on the iPhone 4′s retina display and the iPad’s bigger surface. Also, you need to add the code to the <head> portion of your index file. If you don’t, the icon won’t work.

I’m still working on this web site, but I think it works much better as a portfolio — the way I always envisioned it. WordPress 3.0 with the help of WooThemes has made this very easy. I like it, though I don’t think I’ll ever be totally happy with the look of this site. A couple of things I’m likely going to change include the blog font; I hate sans serif fonts as entry text. This shouldn’t be too difficult with a bit of CSS kung fu; I might even try one of Google’s web fonts. Also, I need to find a way to use the media portion of the front page. Currently, it displays random entries under the “Photography” and “Video” categories. I think I’m going to use them to display the icons that I’m associating with their respective web sites. However, when a user clicks on one, I want it to be able to take them to the site. As I said: I’m still making some adjustments.

I’ve updated and upgraded the Norman Mailer Society web site. It’s now running WordPress 3.0 and uses the Canvas theme from WooThemes. I added the banner graphic after a bit of Photoshop play. Also, I opened a Twitter account for the society, something that I’ll probably find easier to update regularly. If you have Twitter, follow us and we’ll reciprocate. This year’s conference is in Sarasota, and I’ll be speaking on the iPad and the future of books. My tentative title is “Cutting Up Norman Mailer.” More on this soon.

So these are the most readily noticeable updates; all others involved theme and WordPress upgrades, keyword and meta description tweaks, and widget additions, subtractions, or movements. I still need to work on my Moodle install, not to mention the long-neglected Humanities web site (not that anyone cares).

Now I’m going to see if it’s cooled down outside.

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Mysterious Monsters

Mysterious Monsters

Back in the seventies, from what my brain remembers, there was a fascination with what was then termed “mysterious monsters.” I distinctly remember films about Bigfoot, and they frankly scared the shit out of me. I was a wimpy kid, but I was fascinated that that which most scared me. At the time, it was Bigfoot. Why I was frightened of Bigfoot living in Sarasota, Florida, I can’t say. However, one thing we all understand about fear is that it is seldomly rational.

Looking back, I remember watching Creature Feature, with Dr. Paul Bearer, on Saturday afternoons. As you can imagine, these movies were always old and always bad. I spent Saturday afternoons with monsters and aliens from the fifties and sixties, usually entertained and rarely frightened. I only remember one movie that had an effect: I think it was called Twisted Brain by Dr. Bearer, but IMDB calls it Horror High.

It was an updated Jekyll-and-Hyde revenge story. Vernon Potts was the troubled teen — the intelligent nerd bullied by the jocks. He invents a syrum that allows him to . . . you get the picture. The images that stick in my mind are the dark, deserted halls of the high school in which the monster Potts chases down several victims; the decapitation of a teacher by one of those medieval paper cutters — you know, the one with the big hinged arm that looks more like a torture device than a crafting accessory; and another teacher dumped in a drum of powerful acid that eats him down to his bones — the students find his bleached skull the next day. All of these are the clichés of B-movie horror, but it left an impression on me for a number of years.

There was another movie called Just Before Dawn. Now IMDB says this one came out in 1981, which seems a bit late for my memory of it. Yet, the description sounds right. It’s another one full of the clichés — teens go to woods and encounter a maniac — but the final scene has one girl running through the woods with the relentless killer closing. The sun is coming up . . . I can’t remember what happened. It’s less about the end with horror. I remember the moments, not the outcomes.

Anyway, all this to introduce my story “A Mysterious Monster” that I unearthed during my scanning project. I’m thinking about finishing it someday, or at lest correcting the spelling.

Mysterious Monster 1978

Now I think I’ll go watch The Legend of Boggy Creek 2.

Or better yet, the MST3K version.

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Impressions ’85

Impressions ’85

I recently got a new scanner. It’s an older-model Fujitsu ScanSnap S500M, and since then, I’ve been a scanning fool.

Perhaps I’m a bit more nostalgic than most, but I’ve been carrying around boxes of paper memories for the last twenty years. It begins mostly with high school — letters, photos, cards, awards, notes — and really picks up in college. I’ve saved everything I’ve ever written, it seems. And why not? I paid a lot of money for my education, and I’ve invested decades of my life getting to where I am now. (Where is that, exactly?) Even post-college, I have drawers of receipts, tax documents, letters, articles, and whatnot that are better off being bits than they are atoms. Atoms, after all, have mass; collect enough of them, and they’re heavy and take up plenty of space. I’m tired of clutter. I’m a digital man, anyway.

The ScanSnap is very fast, and it scans both sides of a document. I have not been able to get it to integrate with Acrobat 9, as advertised, but that really hasn’t slowed me down. It scans whatever I feed it into a PDF file. If I need to — and you know I do — I can bring it into Acrobat for a bit of OCR. Simple, and with the new computer, quite fast.

I have been scanning everything. I started with the filing cabinet and managed to get rid of all of this crap that I don’t want to ditch — like tax stuff, contracts, house closing stuff, and other official-looking things that you know I’d need if I ever just threw them away. This way, they’re digital, and I’ve eliminated a bit of the kipple. After the drawer, I took the scanner into the office for a few days. Here, I only managed to make a dent, but a significant one. Since graduate school, I’ve had notebooks, file folders, and crates full of research, writing, and course notes that represent my years of graduate education. Into the scanner it all went. (OK, not all. All will take a little more time.) I managed to make a pretty big dent in the office paper. I must admit, however, most of it I’m still reluctant to shred. Oh, the home stuff I scanned first went right into the industrial paper shredder in the office, but my course notes… That might take some time. Even if I don’t end up shredding them, at least I have a digital backup of everything.

I brought the scanner back home for the weekend. I’ve since gotten out the Nostalgia Box. Oh, high school. Seems like a lifetime ago. Do you remember how important everything was then? What a great fantasy world for an analog kid. I was able to relive some of it as I digitized a time in my life pre-computer. Oh, there were computers, but I was concerned about other things, much of which I kept in the form of notes, cards, photos, concert tickets, and other portable memories.

For example, here is Bayshore High School’s last edition of Expressions, published in 1985.

Impressions 85

If you look on page iii, you will see that I won third place for my short story “The Alien.” Yes, it’s true. If you can tell me what famous author I totally ripped off, then I’ll give you a prize. Interestingly enough, looking at the prose I wrote in high school, you’d think I’d be more interested in horror today than science fiction.

OK, back to my summer project. Who knows what else I’ll find.

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End of May

End of May

I haven’t written on my blog during the whole month of May as should be obvious. I’d like to say that I’ve been writing elsewhere, but that would be a lie. I have been on break — a much needed break. Alas, May is at an end, and so is my break. I begin teaching this week, and I’ll begin writing again, too. What have I been doing?

I celebrated my anniversary this month with my lovely wife. It’s been four years. We rented a condo on St. Armand’s Key in Sarasota; we ate, drank, lounged, and exercised. What a great time. Happy anniversary again, A.

I have been using my iPad. It goes with me everywhere except to run and to shower. I’m even reluctant to put it down when I sleep. My favorite applications are the reading ones: iBooks, Wired, GoodReader, and NewsRack. In fact, I think the iPad will mark a return to true reading, especially for me.

Nicholas Carr argues that the Internet is rewiring our brains and making us all multitaskers. This means that we lose concentration and focus more easily, that our attention is more fragmented, and that we exchange depth for breadth. We are, in many respects, teaching our brains to think less deeply and pay more attention to crap. Bruce Sterling made a similar case in his futurist study Tomorrow Now. He argues that our activities on the Internet accumulate fragments of information in blogs, tweets, and social networks, but there’s not real learning going on. Carr suggests that these new skills are not necessarily all bad, and Sterling emphasizes a return to canon building as a way to focus these disperate voices. I think the iPad can help.

Like I wrote above: my favorite apps are the reading apps. IBooks is Apple’s free book reader, and it is slick. Not only can change the fonts and their sizes, but I can double-tap on a word, and click “Dictionary” to look up its meaning. So simple, and so useful. I can insert bookmarks, but I wish I could annotate those. (Are you listening, Apple?) I have purchased a few books, namely Dan Simmons’ Ilium and Octavia Butler’s Kindred, and I have also downloaded many freebies. I’m also excited about making my own. Can you say “self-publishing”?

The coolest app I’ve purchased (so far) is Wired (pictured above right). Man, is this slick; it’s what a magazine on the iPad should be. The pages are gorgeous and the navigation is intuitive and spot-on. When they discuss music, there are samples to be played. When a movie makes sense, one’s provided. They even have a slick, three-page ad for HBO’s True Blood and other animated and interactive goodies. Now the app is $5, and it’s worth every penny. However, I think this will eventually go down. I’d gladly pay $30 a year for this awesome periodical. The rest of you magazine publishers out there should take note: you want to save your industry? Look to Wired‘s example. I could see The New Yorker, Asimov’s, National Geographic, etc. all on my iPad.

GoodReader is another great app. Essentially, it allows me to load up my PDFs and read them on the iPad’s gorgeous screen. I have many PDFs, and this is very slick. They look great, and the program is pretty responsive. But that’s not even the coolest part: it’s all the options I have for getting PDFs onto the iPad. GoodReader links to Box.net and my Dropbox. I can browse the contents of both, and then download whatever I need. Very nice. I’m loading up all my lecture notes; I plan to use the iPad in the classroom. Oh, the educational possibilities are so tantalizing, but I’ll save that for another entry.

NewsRack is my RSS reader. I like that it syncs my Google Reader account. It also looks good and functions well. ‘Nuff said.

Not only have I been spending time with my iPad, but I’ve been wasting time on the computer. Most of that is the fault of Tumblr. Well, tomorrow, my time on Tumblr is going to be limited by necessity.

I’m teaching two class this summer: a first-session World Literature 1, and a full-session World Literature 2, online. I like this schedule for summer, as it will give me some flexibility in July. Several of my friends and colleagues aren’t teaching this summer. I wish that was an option for me, but I need a paycheck. Maybe some day.

That’s really about it. May’s been great. It might be my favorite month of the year.

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Symbiosis

Symbiosis

I will often tell my literature students that we humans define ourselves in opposition to nature. “Humans hate nature,” I’ll say, employing hyperbole to get them thinking. “Look around,” I spread my arms and gesture around the classroom, “what’s natural in here?” A couple will usually look around at the desks and fluorescent lights, but all remain silent. “In fact,” I continue, “all of our technological developments have been about mastering nature or destroying it. We just hate nature.”

I continue in this vein in order to make the point that the signifier “human” suggests a growing opposition to nature. The more technologically sophisticated we get, the more antithetical and harmful our relationship with nature seems to be.

The idea of “human nature” is an oxymoron. Yes, I can accept “animal nature,” but human is a culturally constructed signifier that attempts to assuage any remnants of our animal past. In this, science and religion are the same. The former uses the past and observations of nature in order to better understand it. Why better understand it? To control it,  of course. Therefore, all products of science are about destroying nature or at the very least changing it to suit us. Religion is the same way: it wants to banish the animal, the dark irrational side of the homo sapien — you know the one Satan uses to tempt us? — and uphold the reasonable, rational, and moral side. Samuel Johnson said that “he who thinks rationally, must think morally.” Science and religion hate nature.

So, nature is the enemy. This includes, paradoxically, our own bodies. Just look at the atrocities we perpetrate on our bodies for the sake of being human. My wife introduced me to the problem of “hammer toe.” She does not suffer from this malady, but women who wear high heels in excess can develop this deformity of the foot. And this is a very mild example. I could talk about foot binding, tattooing, piercing, breast augmentation, etc., etc., etc. Even the amount of time and effort we spend in making sure hair grows where it’s supposed to and doesn’t where it’s not is symptomatic of “humanity.” How much time and money does this culture spend on just body hair?

These are the obvious examples. How about our clothing? You can find many web sites that discuss choosing the appropriate clothing for your body shape, but what about our clothing’s influence on the shape to begin with? I had never heard of “muffin tops” in the eighties, nor had I really ever seen a man’s pot belly on a woman before. Was this because of the style of clothing covering these things up, or was it the style affecting how the body developed? What about it, hammer toe?

And speaking of muffin tops, even our concept of healthy is denaturalized. On my drive home Thursday, I was listening to Talk of the Nation‘s show on obesity. Now normally this is one of my favorite shows, but I was appalled at what was being said here. Obesity is a disease? Really? They were actually encouraging surgery as a valid form of weight loss! Talk about hating nature. One “expert” even said that we have to control our portion sizes — that we must not “overeat.” Can we overbreathe? Should we cut out part of our lungs? Overwalking? Let’s cut that leg off right above the knee.

It’s not that we overeat, it’s that we’re eating the wrong things! Our bodies have been programmed to eat over millions of years. You think you can control that? Even with surgery? Eat, people. Just don’t eat the Big Mac and fries. Try some rice, vegetables (no butter!), fruit, grains — you know, the stuff we have lived on for millions of years. Yes, I’m certain our ancestors killed a mammoth once in a while and had a feast akin to the feeding troughs at Golden Corral. But in the interim, what did they do? They ate what they could find from the land and followed the seasons. In modern terms: they ate right and exercised.

Yet, instead of suggesting that eating right and exercise are the only effective ways of controlling one’s weight — something that “people don’t want to hear” and something “that doesn’t help them” — surgery is a viable option. Get part of your stomach cut out so you can continue to drown your lettuce in Ranch sauce, eat Buffalo wings by the dozen, and shove all forms of meat in your meat hole. Instead of saying “lay off the fat,” we say “come  in and let us remove part of your stomach.” Oh, never mind the diabetes and heart disease. Maybe they’ll have artificial hearts soon.

Am I the only one who sees the problem here? Has the human race “progressed” so far that we truly don’t see ourselves fitting into our natural environments any more? You know: the natural force that shaped us gradually over millions of years…

Me in My Vibrams.

Anyway, I meant this entry to introduce my new shoes: I finally got some Vibram Five Fingers. I think that humanity should begin defining itself in relation to — not in opposition to — its environment. Science and technology can augment our lives in many ways, but not if it destroys our surroundings and our relationship to them. Technology should be symbiotic. We should do our best to live with what we have, perhaps making that better and stronger.

This is a problematic idea, and I’ll explore it more in a later entry. However, I think Vibram’s concept for the Five Fingers makes a lot of sense. It brings us closer to our environment, not only in proximity, but in how our bodies work. This technology allows us to go barefoot, but offers protection from the harsher elements of the environment. My Five Fingers protect me from the crappy roads around here, but also let my feet spread out. During my first run earlier today, I used muscles my body had forgotten about. I did get twin blisters on the outsides of my big toes, but hopefully, this is just a temporary inconvenience while I get used to going “barefoot” again. And no technology is perfect, after all.

So I ran five miles in my new shoes. Yes, I altered my gait and stride a bit. My usual form in my old Nikes — and every other running shoe I have ever owned — had me forward on my toes anyway. If I ran “normally” — hitting my heel first and rolling forward — I would get shin splints after about half a mile. I found that if I ran on the front of my feet, I would not get shin splints. This has worked for me for years. I think that’s why I could run further my first time with the Five Fingers than others have been able to: my stride in my old running shoes was closer to what it is in the Vibram’s. Anyway, that’s my theory.

So here begins the experiment. I live a far from symbiotic life, but I’m making little efforts here and there.

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Late Update

Late Update

OK, it looks like I haven’t written anything in April. What happened? When I look back to March, there’s almost a post everyday. Poor April has but one. Booooo! Am I falling down? Have I forgotten my promise? Have I just proved how much of a loser I really am?

No. I have been writing almost every day, except it’s hopefully going to be for publication. I’m on my fourth short story in about a month. Three have been sent out and the fourth should be finished soon. I’m still enjoying the writing; you’re just not seeing any of it. Yet. I’m psyched to have a lighted teaching load this summer, so I can actually get some writing done.

I have been updating my Tumblr accounts pretty regularly: general me stuff; photography; and science fiction.

Classes are almost over for the semester. Yah!

I have been running and eating well, so I’m losing weight. I’m already back into some of my old “skinny” clothes. By the end of the summer, I should be my regular weight again. Yah!

I’m gonna get an iPad if Apple ever ships it to Peach Mac. Still waiting on that. Anyone want to by an Acer laptop? Cheap? Mary, are you still interested?

I was home from class today a bit under the weather. My throat has been scratchy, and I probably shouldn’t have run so hard this morning. Still, after a nap, I have managed to get some stuff checked off my to-do list. Yah!

So that’s a quick update. Nothing much has changed, but progress is being made all around. Hopefully, I’ll post something before another month comes and goes.

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